Is the quality of my life dependent upon me having children?

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Having a hard time being thankful this Thanksgiving.

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1%-3% of pregnancies end in miscarriage between 13 and 19 weeks. How did I end up in this statistic? My chance of what happened was THAT low. Does that put it in perspective???

Many women who have had a second trimester or late term miscarriage feel that even calling
it a miscarriage doesn't capture the gravity of what happened. They are right. It ( Read more... )

Was woken up at 2am to screaming. Looked out my window and saw a man and a woman fighting. Physically fighting. She was being thrown on the ground, against the garage wall. I called 911 and the cops came within minutes. But, they went inside before the cops got there. And never answered the door when the police knocked. I can't stop thinking about ( Read more... )

I go to the doctors this week to have a colonoscopy. Gross, right? ....ugh. I just want to go and get it over with and get my test results.

I should go back a bit further. I went to an endocrinologist.... a specialist of digestion because I get sick all the time and its really painful. Anywho... at the end of my first appointment his first ( Read more... )

I don't know where you go when you leave
But it doesn't seem right to me.....

I board you
You are a ship floating on inky waters
A seaship gliding across mens backs
I am a loner
Doubled across but always doubled up
And your Saints
They're just not enough to save me
Flint! That I'd be rescued
Grey! That I'd blend in
I feel you move across the lengths of my ( Read more... )

What
A
Shitty
Day.

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That dream felt so real. I woke up and I could have sworn I really held that conversation with her.

I think it's probably God giving me more confirmation I'm headed in the right direction. I believe he still speaks through dreams.

Thank You that I'm moving along.

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My pastor said we should vent all our frustrations. Something about how holding them all in will destroy us. I have a lot of frustrations right now.

1. It's not fuckig fair. Why would this happen? I thought love was forever. I'm convinced that mine is, so why the hell shouldn't everyone else? I just want this to go back to the way things were. Life ( Read more... )

Freaking stupid doctors.

Clearly something is wrong if i've had this happen for the last five years. I don't like it and yes, it does hurt. But you run tests and say you can't find anything. Fine. Then why does my fucking heart keep hurting?!?

Seriously something is not right and none of you are smart enough to figure out or take the time to find ( Read more... )